Frustrations

Well, I woke up with pink eye - or some kind of eye infection. I haven't thought to change my contacts because I've been so worried about the nausea, vomiting, and pain. I guess this will teach me to ignore my eyes!

I just want to vent my frustrations. I think my friends are frustrated with me because there's nothing they can do to help me and this illness makes me a bit flaky. I'm at the mercy of my stomach and I have good days and bad. Today is a bad day, as was yesterday. I really can't predict how my stomach will act on a given day. I can't leave my house because I need to be near a bathroom and vomiting in public is not my idea of fun. It's not that I don't want to go out and do things, I would love to! I wish that I wasn't at the mercy of my stomach. It sucks when your major organs decide to fail you.

All I can ask is for some understanding and patience - and I know that's asking a lot. Trust me, I'm just as frustrated as you are, if not more. I like being a social butterfly! I really, really do! I was hoping to have the Summer to kind of recouporate and figure out a good way for me to manage the gastroparesis.

I really am doing my best to make it to meetings,advisement, and other things this semester. I feel like everyone's had a vacation but me - because I'm constantly dealing with this stomach issue. I feel like if I can't make something, people get really mad at me. But if they miss something, it's not a big deal. I just want to know what it's such a double standard? Don't I deserve a break too? This is why I didn't run for any officer positions in clubs this year because I can't physically handle it right now. I need to step back and let other people run things so that I can work on myself. Believe me, that's hard for me to do but I can't help it at this point. I need to heal and to find a medication that works for me and I need for my friends to be patient with me a little longer. <3