A Week Until the Mayo Clinic

On the 24th, I woke up with a headache - the same headache I've had for a while now. I can only describe it as a dehydration headache.

Do you ever have the feeling that sometimes you're an easy target because you're sick, and usually alone? I've felt that way the past week. I have certain friends who don't usually want anything to do with me until they need or want something. It shouldn't bother me, but it does. I felt I should write about it public-ally because it makes me feel worse than I already do. I also have a bad habit of not saying no. I need to fix this issue but then I'll be called selfish behind my back. I think I care too much about what other people think about me. It's a problem that I've had since middle school and I'm really not sure how to turn that switch off. But, I do need to find the off button. The last thing I need is to make myself even more ill over what someone thinks about me.

I think I have too much time to think. =)

My symptoms are still:

1. Swollen throat - it's hard to sip on water or swallow anything still.
2. Headache - my head still aches and my best guess is that it's because of dehydration.
3. Fever - chills and fever above 101. I can't keep down pills to get rid of it.
4. Teeth - my teeth are really sensitive on both sides so I can't really chew.
5. Vomiting/nausea - vomiting up green stomach acid. There is nothing left in my stomach and I have a dry mouth, too.

I'm going to take what medications I'm still allowed to take and lie down for a bit. I shouldn't be tired but I keep almost falling asleep, even just sitting up typing. I feel awful and a bit sad.

On the 26th, I didn't sleep for two days. I'm exhausted but it's been hard for me to sleep without getting up to vomit or from bouts of pain. I've had terrible, gastric spasms. I call them, "gastroparesis attacks." Everyone is pretty worried about me. I've also vomited myself into a throat infection and now, I'm on antibiotics, if I can keep them down.

I vomited day before yesterday and got fluids at the doctor. My blood pressure was 145/105. I was running a fever and I just want to cry. I'm terrified. I'm tired of vomiting and I'm tired of pain. The IV had to go into my foot because the nurse couldn't find veins anywhere else.

I go back to Mayo next week. I hope that they're able to help me. I'm having lab work done on Monday and I'm there for the entire week full of testing. I hope they'll hospitalize me and give me fluids. My urine is also dark in color which tells me that I'm dehydrated - that and I've only gone to the bathroom once today. That's not a good sign.

I had Miso soup and hot tea for dinner. I'm trying to do clear liquids. The Gatorade keeps coming back up so, I'm going to try clear liquids for a bit. I'm incredibly tired and I hope that I can sleep tonight. I managed to fall asleep around 2pm yesterday - just out of pure exhaustion. I didn't wake up until 1pm today. I hope I can sleep tonight because I REALLY need the rest.

I hope that my GP friends have a pain free and nausea free night. <3

The Wedding

Somehow, I made it through the wedding without being sick. I only ate a small amount, so that probably helped. However, the little I did eat, is causing some pretty intense stomach pain. It burns horribly and feels like I've been punched. But, that's not new.

The wedding was amazing! I even managed to get up and do the electric slide with friends. I haven't been able to dance in a while, so that made me extremely happy.

Right now, I'm trying to ignore the pain in my stomach. I am bloated and crampy. I just took my anti-spasmodic medication in hopes that it helps. I feel extremely tired and fatigued. I haven't eaten too much today but I've been trying to drink lots of water. I really could lay down and go to sleep, if my stomach would let me.

But, I have to be social for a few more hours. That's not a bad thing, but I just need my stomach to cooperate. At least I didn't throw up at the reception or during the wedding.

I'm still miserably hungry but I don't want to make myself even more ill. My medication needs to kick in first, before I can do anything. My stomach medicine also makes me sleepy. Well, one step at a time, I guess.

The picture below is of us after the wedding. I'm in the purple.

I Forgot to Eat

I managed to forget to eat today. Since I was up all last night vomiting, I took a long nap today. When I woke up, I realized I missed my dosage of medication. Now, it feels like my stomach has been sucker punched (bad cramps) with an overlay of burning.

I'm trying to eat a baked potato in hopes that it will stay down. I need something on my stomach to vomit because vomiting stomach acid hurts. Also, I'm a bit worried about my teeth. What effect will all of this vomiting have on my teeth?

I wish I could control this pain. The pain goes overlooked by my doctor because the vomiting takes priority. I'm also scared that it's nerve pain and if it is, there's nothing I can really do about it. Nerve pain is hard to treat.